X spoke to me of the Ashram's financial difficulties and said 'I shall tell you the secret why there are such difficulties.' I think he is going to speak to me today or tomorrow. In any case, he told me that he was working ('I am preparing' ... ) to change these conditions, and he asked me if there had been any improvement as yet. I replied that I did not believe the situation had changed very much. He spoke as well of certain people in the Ashram, but I will tell you about this in person. He had a rather amusing way of speaking about people, 'people who pretend to worship the Mother but who keep their mind as a dustbin!' page 331 - Mother's Agenda , volume -1 , 15th Oct. 1959 |
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In fact, the Ashram's financial situation has never been so bad.
We're living from day to day, minute to minute ... One day, it will
crack - all these things are connected (Mother is alluding to the vision of the flood She has just described).
I myself am clearly seeing it from the other side; I see a black,
muddy form - a black, black force. And I see the [Divine] Force acting
on people and, miraculously, the money comes - and then ... it's like
something armored' - it seeps in with difficulty, a thin trickle from
day to day.
Provided the sadhana works, that's all that is needed.
And in fact, periodically, in one way or another, in one form or
another, I receive a kind of assurance, a promise that it will all go
well. page 400 , Mother's Agenda , volume - 1, 12th July 1960 |
A while ago ... You know that I have TREMENDOUS financial difficulties. In fact, I have handed the whole matter over to the Lord, telling Him, 'It's your affair; if you want us to continue this experience, well, you must provide the means.' But this upsets some of 'them,' so they come along with all kinds of suggestions to keep me from having to ... to resort to something so drastic. They suggest all kinds of things; some time ago they said, 'What about a good cyclone, or a good earthquake? A lot of damage to the Ashram, a public appeal - that would bring in some funds!' (Mother laughs) Yes, it's of this order! And it's all quite clear and definite - we have veritable 'conversations'! page 475 , Mother's Agenda , volume - 1, 12th Nov. 1960 |
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When external difficulties subside, when the body becomes passive and
quiet, when it is not constantly demanding attention, then you can LIVE
in this supramental consciousness and it does not seem so difficult;
you feel it is so victorious in its essence that it will end all
difficulties.
But for this to come about, you must remain for a while on those
higher reaches and not be constantly, constantly dragged down below
where you have to fight each minute simply to LAST - to last in all
ways: not just personally, but collectively. [[Note that just a few days
earlier, the Ashram coffers were completely empty. Mother had sold the
last of her jewels: 'It is not for the upkeep of any [Ashram] department
that I have sold my jewels; it is for food, lodging [of the sadhaks]
and wages for domestic servants.' ]] It's a minute-to-minute bout,
simply to last. And how long do we have to last for the thing to be
done? ...
It is a difficult period. page 153 - Mother's Agenda, volume 2, 7th April - 1961 |
By the way, are finances better?They're worse! We have tremendous debts. We've borrowed money from all the people who could give us any. I don't know.... We'll see! (Mother laughs) page 146 , Mother's Agenda , volume 5 , 31st July 1964 |